The last thing a rapper “tweeted” before he and four others were killed while driving at a high rate of speed- “YOLO”. I often say that I live for the moment with the chance I might get old, the thought of someone (besides me) losing their life as a result of my mistake/indiscretion would be unbearable. I don’t text, I can receive them, but my phone doesn’t tell me who they’re from. The only time I “tweet”, is when I am sitting at the dining room table, or in my “office”. Sharing life and adventure with others is what I live for, but I almost always try to use reasonable care. The older I get, the more mortal I feel, and the more reasonable care I use.
I could barely walk to the garage this morning my knee hurt so badly. Consider it an aftershock from the big quake of 1981, when I ruined it the first time. I try to smile, instead of grimace, fondly remembering how fast I used to be when I was ten feet tall and bullet proof! I have never been blessed with a huge amount of self confidence, but it probably peaked in the early to mid eighties when I was on top of my bike and game. I trained hard and played hard. Now life is going way faster than me. I have moments (and longer) of doubt about the paths I have chosen. I look back at the love shared and the lessons learned, and look forward to more loving and learning. Probably a euphoric view of reality, one I have pursued most of my life, believing I will achieve my dreams and goals. Now my confidence is gained through familial approval and the positive comments from guests I take out on adventure trips.
Sometimes my days are not as productive as they should be. Sometimes after a boat tour, I still stand on the dock and watch the water go by. I remember those that are above me now, and the positive contributions they made in my life. I give thanks for being so lucky to have lived such a full and wonderful life. Yup, as far as we know, you only live once. Some may feel I’ve lived one too many times. I will continue to learn, share, and try to make others smile. It rained last night. The air is sweet, the sun is shining, and my knee doesn’t hurt anymore. I guess I’ll go do a little living, but first, I gotta do the dishes!